One in a Million

That's what I thought my chances were of ever actually writing a post like this. Sometimes, on more frustrating days, I would've put that number even higher. But, here we are! And here are the facts...

True: I'm PREGNANT! Wait, did you hear me correctly? Just want to make sure because, after 8+ years, I just said that
I AM PREGNANT!!

A little background...
True: We went to California back in August for a fun vacation (and frozen bananas).
False: That was the main reason that we went there.

True: While in Cali, we also had the opportunity to meet with a great doctor and nurses at a fertility clinic. Of course, this process started well before then. But after weeks of self-inflicted injections, ultrasound appts, countless blood draws, and other funky meds, we'd finally made it to this point. IVF seems so unnatural, and yet, I couldn't help but to be amazed and humbled by it all.

True: 9/8/09. Another blood draw this morning--this time it's the big one. We wait around all day to hear the results. Finally at 5:30 we get a phone call from my favorite nurse. Guy and I are both on the line when she says, "We got your results in, and it looks like you're very pregnant!" At this point my mind clicks off and I just start bawling. She's rattling off all of these other numbers from the bloodwork, and I'm still registering her first sentence. I couldn't believe it! I wonder if I'll ever re-live this moment without crying, even now.

True: Despite the miracles of modern technology, I know with absolute certainty that we wouldn't be where we are right now without the unwavering faith and constant prayers of our friends and family. This fact has been confirmed to me over and over lately. It brings me to tears knowing how much people have cared about us personally and wanted this so much for us. Our prayers over the last 3+ years were originally in the direction of adoption. We want so much to adopt again (still do), but for some reason that avenue was not working for us. So over the last several months we started considering our fertility options again. I am so grateful for our awesome family and their constant prayers in our behalf. Even little nieces and nephews (and the big nieces and nephews:) who are barely old enough to even say a prayer. One young niece was so sincere in her prayer for us to bring another child into our family... she forgot Guy's name and prayed for me to get pregnant w/someone else, but I'm sure Heavenly Father knew what she meant. ;) I am just as humbled when I hear of good friends, and even people who we don't know that well, who have been praying for us. Of course I knew they cared, but I guess I didn't realize how much it meant to me.

False: I now have a baby growing in my tummy.
True: I now have TWO miraculous babies growing in my tummy! That's right... we're having TWINS!!

False: I feel like I'm out of the "danger zone" of early pregnancy.
True: I don't think I'll ever feel like that. Not until both of these babies are out and healthy. But, with the advice of a good friend, I have quickly come to determine something. Every second of every day of this pregnancy is a miracle. Pure and simple. (Man, all these tears! You'd think I was pregnant or something.) Of course I would be devastated if, for some reason, this gift was taken away tomorrow. I want nothing more than to continue carrying these amazing little miracles. I can't wait for the day when we find out their genders and when I get to start feeling them moving around inside of me. I can't wait to see Adam step into his role as big brother to these little guys whose progress he is already closely following ("How big are the babies today?" "Hey, the babies get to eat your chewed-up starburst too, Mom!";). But I can honestly say that I've been cherishing each day that I wake up and have to remind myself that I really am pregnant... I'm not just still dreaming. Each week is a milestone and a blessing. It'll be 11 on Saturday! Yes, still pretty early to announce this to the world (hey, I'm surprised I waited 6 weeks), but we've already told so many family and friends that, like I said, I'm livin' in the moment! Pregnancy "ticker" (top right) and all.

(That's all for now... many more posts to come:)